Jennifer Gray was not having the time of her life after her rhinoplasty.
In interviews published Monday, Gray – who is releasing her memoir “Out of the Corner” on May 3 – told The New York Timesand People about the two nose jobs she got after she starred in the 1987 smash hit “Dirty Dancing” and how they drastically changed her appearance.
“After Dirty Dancing, I was America’s sweetheart, which you would think would be the key to unlocking all my hopes and dreams,” Gray writes in her memoir, according to the Times. “But it did not go down that way.”
Jennifer Gray attends the premiere of “Dirty Dancing” in 1987. (Photo: Ron Galella, Ltd. via Getty Images)
In the memoir, Gray recalls that after “Dirty Dancing,” there were still not “a surplus of parts for actresses who looked like me.” She was apparently told that her nose was “a problem.”
“My so-called ‘problem’ wasn’t really a problem for me, but since it seemed to be a problem for other people, and it did not appear to be going away anytime soon, by default it became my problem,” she writes, according to the Times. “It was as plain as the nose on my face.”
Gray told People that she was “completely anti-rhinoplasty” and “resisted” the surgery most of her life.
“I really thought it meant surrendering to the enemy camp,” Gray said. “I just thought, ‘I’m good enough. I should not have to do this. ‘ That’s really what I felt. “I’m beautiful enough.”
Gray noted that her mother, actor Jo Wilder, had gotten the surgery, as did her father, Oscar-winning actor Joel Gray, and that the “Ferris Bueller’s Day Off” star sympathized with her parents’ reasons.
“I understand it was the 50s. I understand they were assimilating, ”Gray told People of her Jewish parents. “I understood that you had to change your name and you had to do certain things, and it was just normalized, right? … You can not be Jewish. You know, you can not look Jewish. You’re just trying to fit into whatever the group thinks. ”
Gray says her mom loved her but suggested she get a rhinoplasty for the sake of her acting career.
After consulting with her mother and three plastic surgeons, Gray underwent two surgeries to “fine-tune” her nose. The second surgery was meant to correct an irregularity caused by the first, but she said it left her nose “truncated” and “dwarfed,” according to the Times.
Gray during th 1999 ABC Network Summer TCA press tour. (Photo: Jim Smeal via Getty Images)
Gray told People she knew she had made a mistake – she refers to it as “schnozzageddon” – when she ran into actor Michael Douglas at a premiere after her second surgery and he did not recognize her.
“That was the first time I had gone out in public. And it became the thing, the idea of being completely invisible, from one day to the next. In the eyes of the world, I was no longer me. ”
Gray also recalled when an airline employee looked at her driver’s license, did not recognize her, but noted she had the same name as Jennifer Gray… the actor.
Gray attends the LA Dance Project Annual Gala in 2021. (Photo: Tommaso Boddi via Getty Images)
When Gray told the employee, “Actually, it is me, ”she said that the woman responded:“ I’ve seen ‘Dirty Dancing’ a dozen times. I know Jennifer Gray. And you are not her. ”
“Overnight I lose my identity and my career,” Gray wrote in her memoir, according to the Times.
But the actor – who is arguably as famous for her plastic surgery as her beloved role as Baby Houseman in “Dirty Dancing” – says she’s tired of others controlling her narrative and is ready to claim it for herself.
“That’s a new feeling,” she told People. “To take myself out of the corner – and to recognize that I have been putting myself there, through story, through narratives that were not giving me the best life. The story I was telling myself about how I got here was not a great story. And not entirely true. I had not seen the ways in which I’d made choices. ”
Read Grey’s full interviews at The New York Times and People.
This article originally appeared on HuffPost and has been updated.